The Serious Ayer

Behind these masks hides a struggle, between my tears, between my smile. The one who speaks, are just my eyes, but now they stealthily learned to lie! The tears for help, have drenched the world Who do we help? The weak? The kind? These soaring cries, now made us forget, the spirited joy, once never contained. Never loose hope, oh aching world, amidst these chaos is a silent world. The tears will one day cleanse your soul, and all that's left, will be spirited joy! A year for compassion, another for love, to slowly heal this aching world. Until then my eyes shall stealthily lie, of these struggles between my tears and smile .

This is the most obvious question when a girl and a guy hangs out. But things got interesting when I went out with two of my guy friends. This happened back in 2016. We were at a restaurant at Niagara falls. There was this enthusiastic photographer going to every table taking complimentary pictures. He finally came to our table and offered to take a picture. We agreed. The three of us sat together. I was in the middle. Looking at me and the buddy to my left, the photographer asked, "Are you two together?" To this, 'the left side buddy' said, "Nooooooo!" The photographer did not give up. Looking at me and the buddy to my right side he asked,"Are you two together?" To this, 'the right side buddy' said, "Nooooooooooo!" The photographer just couldn't help the last question, he had to ask. Looking at both the guys he asked, "Are you two together?????" To this the three of us said in unison - ...

Growing up I always thought I would end up as a writer. Not just any writer, a stoned writer! Now what are the odds, I have never smoked in my life and I did't end up being a writer either. I don't even enjoy drinking. I can handle a glass of wine occasionally. But that's it. The last time I was actually DRUNK, things didn't go very well, all I remember was lots of dancing, lots of laughing, throwing up and finally sleeping like a baby. Boy it was fun, except for the throwing up part. And yes for the very same reason, I don't ever want to get DRUNK again. Two weeks back something interesting happened. I got to try Nitrous Oxide (laughing gas). In fact it was under medical supervision. I was getting my first wisdom tooth pulled. Along with the local freezing of the extraction area, I was also wearing a mask inhaling Nitrous Oxide. The dentist said it would keep me all relaxed. I didn't really feel the urge to laugh at all. Maybe because they had the News chan...

So when google introduced a personalized birthday doodle the first time, I was really impressed. And now this year the first person/machine to wish me on my birthday was my bank in India (9.5 to 10.5 hours ahead of Eastern Standard Time) So I technically opened my first birthday wish the day before. Well you know you are living the high life when there are more machines wishing you on your birthday than people! With a vision still going crippled and an almost healthy body and mind I think I am doing good for 27 years. But then I still miss those days when I had the luxury to go to bed without brushing or flossing or taking off my makeup. I can't do it anymore, the more I stare in the mirror I will find a fine line in the making! And you know how my mind is so drenched in that fancy advice (which could possibly be true) - Cleanse, tone and moisturize your face. Well hell yeah I do that! I do it all and I am still insecure. And even in the middle of all this buzz, I turned 27,...

So we were on our way back to Canada after one hell of a crazy wedding in India, we were both sick, tired and sleepy. We were almost 4 hours away from Pearson Toronto, and the captain warned us of a possible turbulence just before we were about to enter St Johns.  I was too tired even to fasten my seat belts even then the minor shaking forced me to fasten my seat belts, my husband never takes them off so he was good. I only remember holding his hands and I dozed off, except for some occasional shaking I was sound asleep. Well this wasn't an easy ride for the rest of the passengers, including my husband. Everyone quickly switched to the interactive map on the entertainment screen. Even he did. At one point feared forced my husband to doubt if it was time for the final kiss, he looked at me, ironically I could only return a crazy snore, I was dead asleep! Well long story short, it was only a minor turbulence. We reached Toronto safe and sound. He gave me the ultimate ...

Twice in life you get to analyze if you were successful in life; the first phase is when you ask your parents, the next phase is when you ask your kids! Picture Source : Internet

I have never wanted to be a Health blogger, boasting about ways to go vegan, feed on green fluids which tastes like an exploded veggie dynamite in your mouth. But I have to do this, yes I used to be one of those females cutting off dairy, cutting off gluten, cutting off sugar and all the wonderful things from my life. Yes two months back I had the most paper thin body of all. And I did this all just to clear up my face. I went down to shocking 40kg! I was falling ill frequently. The worst part, I was still so stubborn with my diet, I was happy with the fact that my face was clearing and that's when I started forgetting about my health.  For my 25th birthday, it somehow struck me, that I had to stop this. I got so paper thin. It was then that I ended the months old diet. I started feeding on cheese, meat, sugar. Clearly for the first few weeks I could see all the side effects on my skin, I thought no to bother and kept going. The following week, I  finally felt ...

I had a great day at work today, stepping out of my office doors, I thought I deserved a break. I drove to the nearest subway and ordered a chicken teriyaki sub.  The meal was filling and I thanked myself for the much needed break. Stepping out of the building, I reached into my pant pockets to grab my car keys. I realized it wasn't there. I searched my sling bag quickly and realized I was at no luck.  I went back inside and at that instant I was sure about one thing.  I had carefully dropped my car keys into the trash. I went to the counter.  Me: Hi I am sorry, I think I dropped my car keys in the garbage. Counter lady : Oh wow great!  I would never do that. * laughs* She started putting on her gloves to dig into the trash. Me: I am really sorry. Her: Oh that's alright we can look it up. She opened the trash box and there it was lying on top amidst all the junks!  I thanked them all, and thought about all the odds of being me, ma...

Who cares baby, at the end of the day it is always about giving thanks for you made out alive, being grateful for the accomplishments you had and the people who helped you, analyzing the shortcomings and being optimistic about waking up alive to live your next adventure! PS : Now what motivated me to write this post, I had my first adventurous drive through the snow today. I was on my way to church, and everything looked so white, the roads, the buildings, the vehicles on the road. I was blindly trusting the GPS lady with all her rerouting plans. She took me through an even whiter, snow blanketed narrow lane. All I could remember was me moving a little too much to the right to give way for an approaching vehicle, and right after that I totally lost control and my car went to the right. I tried to turn left and my car skidded on ice. I could brake the car but it was stuck in the snow and I couldn't move the car at all. I turned the emergency blinkers on. Lucki...

Hey You, So I started writing this on the back of my phone bill, as a revenge to my cell phone providers for sending me a huge bill. The thought of two digits on my bill irritates me, now my selfish instinct to upgrade phones, provided me with a three digit number on the bill. Well clearly I earn very little now, at least I am happy I have people to lend money from. (Hope they will never see this) So as I was saying, I have this theory, in order to make yourself you or let's just say to make you the best version of yourself, you might just have to create a necessity so that you will find a need to be the best version of yourself. That's what I did, when my boss pays me, I go spending it all to create the necessity, be broke again , so that I will try harder to  earn a better job, study more to get there. I know that all my efforts to be broke  again will  pay off one day! ( Yeah I am being silly again) Yeah don't ever take me seriously I am writing th...

*Alex calling* *Alex calling* His phone beeped. He didn't pick up the phone, he went outside and made a quick scan at his phone and came back inside. What he was unaware was the fact that his wife was carefully watching his every move. They were at a friend's place for dinner.  It was one of those visits they made to their friend's place after welcoming their new baby girl. They are a happy couple. Everything was perfect, great job, big money, great partners. Still she has started to pile on  her doubts.  "Why wouldn't he pick up the call in front of me?" She thought about the ways husbands in movies used to hide the other woman's name with a guy's name, so that their wives wouldn't know. "But Edaan would never cheat on me, we have a family and he's a great guy", She tried to calm herself. The baby cried in her arms, she was a chubby pink little one. Sarah kissed her baby to calm her down. Edaan was watching hi...

So this is the girl, my best friend, my childhood friend, she had been struggling financially and emotionally for a while, still manages to smile and is thankful for even the simple things she own. I was happy to know that she was doing okay now, she was earning enough to take care of her family, still she has ends to meet and even then, when she earned her first salary, what she really did was help out the needy. Often at times you meet beautiful people, often at times you are ignorant about the beautiful people in your lives. Cherish them. Picture source : Internet

So today I was working at the mall trying to sell hair styling tools, it was a slow Monday, I was going round and round the kiosk for the millionth time when a bald guy came in. Him: "Hey what 's going on at your store"  Me: *Wondering how I could make a sale today* " Um we sell hair straighteners and hair care stuff" Him: *Smoothed his bald shiny head* "Do you have a fix for my head?" Me: *Modest smile * "Ah well if you have a girlfriend, do bring her along, we have plenty of things for her" Him : "Oh you are so mean!" We exchanged a fist punch and he went away.

I was covering up for my friend at a store at the mall, it wasn't a busy day. I was sitting there staring at every single person walking by. Suddenly I saw a man waving at me with a tissue, I could only see his lifted arms and smile, I was truly flattered by the effort he made to smile so happily at me. I didn't want to disappoint the guy, I waved back smiling. He was even more happy to see this. He smiled some more waving the tissue higher and walked by. And then I realized, he wasn't really smiling at me!  He was in fact gesturing that he was taking the paper towel kept in front!

I met her today after a long time, she was so happy to see me, I was so sad that I never even missed her a little. She is not the bravest person  I have seen, but I know she's the reason why I am alive today. she once told me, " Fear is the first sign of an insight, don't you give in, fight for your dreams Ann!" And I remember feeling great after talking to her every single time. I am so happy to have you back, welcome back Ann! I really really missed you! Yours, Ann!

I have never believed gifting as an art not even when I had written an article for my friend's page for Valentine's day titled the 10 best  gifts for Valentine's day! But I must say I enjoy gifting, there was some silly joy in it, I love to see the person smile. This year I thought to take my gifting habit to a whole new level. Thanksgiving 2015! It's been a year and half in Canada and I am still a novice when it comes to traditions, I am not sure if this is the conventional way, but I thought to get something for my cousin 'T'. As a token of thanks for the best times I had in Canada.  I got her a box of Lindor Chocolates and an indoor potted lilac orchid plant. I am a total failure at surprises, I  accidentally  asked T if she loved orchids! "Are you bringing flowers??LOL!" " Oh no no, I am bringing an orchid pie, hope you like orchids", I said trying to cover up the lie. "Oh really, aww, but how does i...

I am a happy person today, I was happy about everything  today. The work I did, the Bacon and English Muffin breakfast I ate for supper, the over sized tees I wore to work, the smudged eyeliner. It was a day unplanned, it was a day I woke up to laziness but turned out well. It was just a regular day, but it was a happy day today!

That Sweet Bastard was nothing but cute, his rotten teeth was black and when he smiled he had the look of a tiny pirate. He was in his baby stroller and he was facing me when we were in the bus. I fell in love with the little one instantly, he made sure he had all my attention flashing his rotten smile. Oh boy! Why are toddlers this cute! I think he likes me too, I saw him pulling down his hoodie creating a window between our smiles. And the very next moment he pulled up his hoodie and smiled like the pirate. This went on for few minutes. Well I was loving the attention too, I started playing the same hide and seek game with him. I saw him pointing his finger at me and talking to his mommy. I couldn't hear him out since I had my ear phones plugged in. I thought not to bother, since my little pirate came back for the game again and started his round two of the rotten cheesy smiles. I saw him pointing his finger at me and I saw him talking to his mommy again. I wanted to kno...

He said she is the world to him. "She is so brilliant and beautiful, there is nothing impossible for her, she can even conquer the sun if she wants to" 'He' was the old man I met at the walkway, and 'she' was his daughter! Picture Source : Internet

Picture Source : Internet